My Thoughts

We talk about race White, Black, Asian, Brown I don't know why I said Asian...maybe I'm a racist lol But we talk about race... What are we racing for? Who's watching the race? How far is the race? Are we running? I don't really want to run Is there a winner? A loser? What's at the end of the goal? If there even is a goal? But, do you know why it's called a race? It's so we compete with one another to define who is the greater of all Who is the best race that defeats all others to fall Those at the top sitting on their comfy chairs Looking down at us, hating each other, who the fuck cares?? It really shouldn't be a race against one another. It should be a race together to reach our goal as a humanity Stop hating each other before we all lose our sanity A world where there is no racism or hate just because of how we look Switching your detrimental perspective for the bright sunny outlook

Happy to announce, due to lots of request by people wanting to buy my art 大多数の人からのリクエストにつき  I decided to start selling my art! 自分のアートを売る事にしました！ This really helps me to continue creating more art and more content 買ってくれる事でこれからももっと描き続けられるし、もっと作品を制作できるようになります If you are interested in purchasing any of my art 購入に興味のある方は Please DM me on Instagram @kaicoxa or Email me at kaikoba94@gmail.com インスタグラムのDM　@kaicoxa　か　メールアドレス kaikoba94@gmail.com　までお願いします Always, Thank you so much everyone for your support いつもサポートしてくれてありがとう！ If you live around the center of Tokyo, I can deliver it to you personally! 東京都内だったら手渡しで届けられまーす！ "Bush on Fire" 21.3x15 Acrylic on paper 105,000 yen "Me and my Friends" 17.6x8 Acrylic and coupy on plank 85,000 yen "Love or Lust" A4 Pen on Paper 35,000 "Stage Trauma" A4 Pen on Paper 25,000 "Missed Opportunity" A4 Pen on Paper 25,000 Except for

Thank you for letting me understand For the people I have near me The People who care for my well being I'm thankful for the people that understand me for who I am I am very grateful, Thank you very much I love everyone But I need to show it more Not for my self, but for the people around me who support me I want to see their happy faces Because in the end... that makes me happy

I used to think words were the dumbest thing invented by human beings It creates so much misunderstanding of my feelings and perspective Now, I treasure words...well I think I've always have carefully selecting words but now I understand the beauty of it These random sounds joining together to deliver emotions and ideas Leaving a trail on this earth for thousands of years We need words, but at the same time we need more meaningful words Words that matter, and maybe this is just my theory but words that connect with an emotion Including my self I think we sometimes use words carelessly Not paying attention to our selves and the people we direct it towards Either we are just randomly putting out words to get by the situation you are in Or using words not thinking about the other persons feeling or perspective Its hard because every word is powerful, and none of it is light But if we continue to be conscious of the words we use every day to everyone And se

I sometimes take life too seriously I lose my self thinking seriously, losing sight of all my strengths Life isn't meant to be taken seriously I lose sight of how good I am to be 適当 No one else has my sense of 適当、これでいいっしょmentality I over think somethings have to be done a certain way Losing the main purpose of life or the thing I do Which is to just enjoy life and have fun with what I do. If I'm not doing that, I'm losing something in life And I don't want to lose I want to win By having fun

Recently more people are interested in buying my paintings and drawings Something I'm very grateful for, and never imagined this would happen to me I want to continue to keep on drawing Because I still have my big dream of going to the moon in 2023 It might seem like a far fetched dream of being invited But with all the different things coming to me, and getting positive feedback I know I can make it, only if I keep on drawing If I just continue what I like to do Look down and continue moving forward The opportunity will come to my lap And all I have to do is to prepare for that one moment in my life

Am I doing better than yesterday? I went for a run longer than yesterday, meditated, and stretched more so I think the answer is yes I also came back to standup comedy in a way I have lost for awhile now I want to be doing more standup, the other day I wasn't feeling it Now, there is an urge to stand on the stage with the mic in my hand Seeing the lights and dimly lit people face The rush in my body, some people laughing, my buddy's watching In that sense of my way of thinking towards comedy, I did do better than yesterday And the biggest reason is because I was able to share about my problem with people People responded to me in a positive way, believing in me That melts my heart, that makes me realize I've got it in me Now it's down to if I do it or not So thank you everyone for listening to me and also expressing what you feel It really helps me And tomorrow, I want to be doing better than today Set the bar a little higher than today

Yesterday was an amazing day spending time with friends and a special person I was living in the moment, until I started thinking about the stage I was going to get back on I had prepared all of my comedy bits for this night for awhile now I sat down with Troy and went through all of my lines and even added a new intro for my self I practiced countless times to a point I knew the lines I was excited to get on the stage for the first time this year Then suddenly, this feeling triggered the flashback of my first stage in front of the cameras I'm on the stage performing my bit while no one in the room laughs No one is agreeing with what I'm saying at the moment I got scared I started thinking rapidly Is this going to happen tonight, when I'm most confident with my material? I gave out and told my friend about my feeling He told me "If you don't want to go, just don't go" This made me relieved and I decided not to go Deep down,

Eddie is my middle name, Hark means to listen, Eddie Hark is the name with the message of equal heart I want to create clothes, people feel confident and empowered when they wear it Clothes are something we wear, we choose, and feel from it everyday Through that process you are able to feel confident no matter who you are Just by selecting the clothes you feel good in It is something that I have recently felt by actually caring about what I wear Before I used to wear anything, anything that would fit me and make me comfortable But at that point of my life, I wasn't very confident with my self I wasn't able to talk to anybody being embarrassed by who I was at that time But now I know my self more, and I have worked on my self everyday to be better On top of all that I choose what I wear and how I express my self through clothes By doing that I almost always feel unstoppable That is why I want more people to feel the same way, especially woman Woma

Why does the moon exist? How is it just floating up there while shining so brightly? The moon has powers with gravitational pool and menstrual cycle as well Isn't that crazy?? Without the moon, the earth wouldn't exist right now The moon helps pull other meteorites in space and takes the hit for the earth The earth and the moon are a set, a team for it to keep existing. I learned that because the way the moon spins we have never seen 41% of the moon So basically no one has seen the other side of the moon That's crazy I want to see the other side, I want to see with my own eyes if the pictures on the internet are true The closest way I can possibly achieve that is to be part of the Dear Moon Project led by a man named Yusaku Maezawa He wants to take 7 artists to the moon and back to see what kinds of creations the artist will make I want to draw something I want to see something people have never seen I want to see the earth from the moons p

Beginning on my 2020 Resolution, I started running again This time I feel different with the way I run I have this moment where if I focus on what I'm actually doing right now, I am able to be in the moment or in the zone I am not thinking in my head about other things or problems in my life Because that means nothing to me right now, while I am running What really matters is how am I going to get to the next step, goal When I feel like I'm in the moment I feel my face relaxes, all the muscles and tension in the body removes it self building all my focus on the eyes By running I was able to find that out about when I can or want to focus Anytime I want to do it, I can bring it out It's something I haven't felt before but now I know and experience it, every time I'm running What is your focus right at this moment? What is your number one priority right now? Is it drawing this beautiful line? Is it listening to this person that's talking