Standing up for my self

What are my values? What is important to me?

Questions I have asked my self, countless times

The base of all that is love, that never changes

But I would have to update the aesthetic of that every single day

It's like painting your house to the way you want it, just because it makes you feel better

I realized I'm the type of person that it is hard for me to construct my words and speaking out

Words are hard for me because with words, you can never take them back

And It's not that I am incapable of speaking my mind

It's just, I was afraid of how I would be perceived with every word I speak out

And it even gets harder when I have to come up with my mind when I need to right in the moment

Recently, I'm doing better

How?

I tell my self I don't give a damn

I don't care what you think of me

I don't care how you think of me

I don't care what happens after what I said

And don't get me wrong, this doesn't mean I don't care about you or your opinions

It's actually the opposite!

If I don't speak out the words that are true to me, I don't get to share those opinions or perspective that might be valuable to the people around me

I don't want to miss those opportunities anymore

I trust my self of how I have lived my whole life especially learning from my mom of loving people

And that is the base I was talking about, if the base of your personality is built right, you can build any building you want in this rule free world!